Anger

I have a problem with bottling up my anger.

I don’t process everyday situations correctly. I let little things build up daily inside me until I can’t take it anymore. I lose my vision, my blood is boiling, I do what they call “black out.” When I woke up, I’m lucky if multiple people or myself isn’t hurt on different occasions or if I’m not inside a jail cell.

With my traumatic brain injury, doctors seem to offer meds as the only answer to my problem. I still haven’t figured out how to process these situations yet. So far, I do my best to avoid negative people that will keep me down. I vent as best I can to counselors and family.

I’m trying to understand my brain and recognize conversations and which way they go.